31 August 2015


                              a userer’s lament

                                      the internet is a vast store of info right
                                      doesn’t matter what you’re looking for
                                                   cross-stitch patterns
                                                           hard-core
                                                  cary grant’s real name
                                                 it’s all gonna be there
                 (you could probably find a hard-core cross-stitch pattern
                                                 featuring said actor
                                                          but
                                would you want that on your wall)

                                                         however
                                    there is a downside to all this “research” ……
                    people get ill  -  they go online before they go see the doc
                                            see that boil on your butt
                      (in the literal sense this may require a mirror on a stick
                                   just google  -  i’m sure you’ll find one)

                                        meanwhile  -  back at the pustule
                                                       is it malignant
                                                         infectious
                                                          an STD
                                                                or
                            the result of being bitten by some evil life-form
                            man  -  by the time you finally get to see a medic
                              you’re damn near suppurating information

                                                   problem is this
                                                   you got a pc
                                                           but
                                              your gp has an md
               (all these initials are making me ill  - 
           hold on while i log on to see if that’s likely)
               they don’t like being second-guessed

                             which  -  finally  -  brings me to the point
                                          my job is kinda stressful
                                                        and
                                    i don’t get a lotta sympathy
                   moneylender huh  -  you deserve whatever gets thrown at you
                           well it can’t be boring  -  you’ll never lose interest
              (wish i had a pound for every time i’ve heard that one)
                            if i give clients a hard time  -   i’m a bastard
                                            if i go easy  -  i’m a mug
                                                          so
                                               i get wound up
                                         my heart rate is too high
                                                   i got a rash
                                                        and
                                                       now
                                               on top of it all
                                  i’m a little blocked down below
                                        (if you take my meaning)

                                                           so
                                                  i went online
                                     checked out my symptoms
                                                        and
                               possible links with my profession
                                                      then
                                             and only then
                           i made an appointment with the doc

  i spent twenty minutes reading copies of reader’s digest from 1991
                                        until i was called in
                      what seems to be the problem she said
                        so i filled her in on my job and lifestyle
                                      then cut to the chase
                                                        and
                      told her about my tough times in the toilet

    i’ve done some background reading on this i said proudly
                                                 and
         i believe it could be stress-related constipation
  exacerbated by immersion in constant moral dichotomy
  as seen in the case of gardener and keech  -  1972

                wow  i’ve never seen anyone so angry
    (subsequent surfing has revealed that she displayed
         “apoplectic aural vapour expulsion syndrome”)
               she just gave me this cold withering look

 truth is i was so scared that my bowel problem resolved itself
                    (albeit a little too suddenly for comfort)

                
                                  then she leaned back
                                     took a deep breath
                                               and said
                                  through gritted teeth
                            (“anger-induced bruxism”)
                                   with a voice so slow
                           it was like malevolent molasses

                                       no shit shylock

                            (anyone wanna buy a computer)

   

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21 August 2015

MOJO

video


                             mojo


                                  i wear no jewellery
                                             no
                                     rings on my fingers
                                             no
                                bells on my toes
                 (though i do have music wherever i go)

                                                    i
                                       have no piercings
                                                no
                                          decorations
                                                no
                                 titillating ornamentation
  (though i sometimes find such things appealing on others)

                                        all i have is a mojo

                    many many long ago and faraway years from here
                                               a friend was making a 3D collage
                        (even now i remember that
                           as he worked
                    we were listening
               to slim harpo’s king bee)
       he was using a lot of square plastic pieces
                               of many colours

                                           rejects or samples
                                              (i never knew)
                                                       from
                                                a local factory
              
                    perhaps they were rebels or refugees
   fleeing the production line to find a haven in his art

                                               anyway
                             these inch and a quarter squares
                                each had a hole in one corner
                                  just waiting to be strung up
                                      (ain’t we all)

                                 colin i said
    strange how writing his name brings back his face
                             that room
               that sunny teenage afternoon
     though i lost touch with him forty years ag0
                                                             
                                 colin i said
                     you spare me one of these man

                            sure man help yourself
  (we said man a lot in those days  -  truth is i still do)

                      i picked a square
     a delicate jade green piece of synthetic geometry
                         and
    he gave me an old leather bootlace
     so i could hang it ‘round my neck

            maybe it was instinctive
 maybe we’d moved on to muddy waters*
                             but
 from that high bright distant day on
                      it was my mojo

                   always wore it
(under my clothing  -  nothing ostentatious here)
              i knew it was there
 it was frowned at by a couple of radiologists
                     caressed
                   en passant
  by more intimate acquaintances
           but it was always there

             still is in a sense

                   though
         as in the old adage
something of a napoleon’s broom

              the square
            was replaced
                 firstly
  by an intricate wooden trinket
                         then
                      by a carved head
                       at the request
                            of a friend

 this head hung between our hearts for years
       though it lost its chin in the process
    perhaps in the passion of a sudden caress
 (what matter  -  i will soon have chins enough for all)

              the truth is
     it stays the same mojo
 a small part of me which remains important
       (just like my mojo
cries the music-hall comedian in my soul)

                         is it totem
                             badge
                                or
                  mere long-service medal

                i make no claims
                           but
               wear it for myself

                  another amulet
       a charm on memory’s necklace

                    ………………………..


*Muddy Waters' number, should you wish to see/hear it:

       https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hEYwk0bypY

                                    

                                               

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13 August 2015

03 August 2015


the end of the road 

                              

                              

                            aphonia later

     throughout my life i’ve used a lot of words
              they’ve not been thrown away
                   i’ve valued them
           from the first halting infantile utterances
                to insults shouted at passing drivers
                       from debate to desire
                          i’ve needed them
            rolled their syllables around my tongue
                       like sybaritic jelly beans

                 i’ve wallowed in my overflowing vocabulary
                                       laughed 
  as the lathery lexicon splashed onto the floor
                          i’ve revelled in words
                             high-minded words
                                low-life words

                        go for your thesaurus you varmint
                  this town/village/city/conurbation 
                      ain’t big enough for both of us

                                       i’ve spoken
                                         loudly
                                         softly
                        loaded both barrels 
           with every type of adverbial buckshot
                          (or should that read bullshit)
                                     i’ve whispered
                                          cajoled
                                          ranted
                                        reiterated
                                      congratulated
                                               &
                                             even…
                                        ejaculated

                               


                                     i’ve played with words
                      their sound    their order   their meaning
                           i’ve kicked arse with a trochaic foot
                    words made me so hot 
                        that i thought i might
                         spondee-neously combust

                                   i’ve put words together with music
                                      let them split their differences
                                          and share the proceeds

                              then
                     so gradually
           that i thought it an illusion
                   my voice took a hike
                  my stentorian tones
                   became inconsistent

                                i could no longer sing
                               i became the old jokes
                never need to buy a pony   -   
                  my voice is a little hoarse
                           or a sled dog   -   little husky
                            (you get the idea i’m sure)

                                       my larynx
                                 was malfunctioning
                       you should see the hospital video
                      vocal chords are strangely vaginal
                             (yes i am aware
            that there is a joke waiting to be made)

                          i tell you this not to seek sympathy
                                       milton led the way
                           i considered how his light was spent
                                         then followed
                                      enjoying the irony
          of using words to bemoan my loss of them

                                     like so many little things
                                          my voice passed
                                           surreptitiously

                               i cannot remember my last shout
                                    or my last truly expressive
                                              verbal caress
            they were wasted because i knew i had more
                                    
                now i remain silent (or mime in noisy pubs)
                           while the world sings the chorus
                                             
                              i conduct my affairs
                           in an intimate monotone

                                               

                  yet still i hold words dear
                       to lose one voice 
      may be regarded as a misfortune
                    to lose ….  (…..  lautrec)

                      this has not been a lament
                             rather a celebration

                      if i have held your interest
                       my voice is as loud as ever
                                                                     
                                    if you have been  …
                                  thank you for listening


                             ………………………….


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13 July 2015

17 June 2015




               christmas crackers from my love cv

                                                  when i was at school
                     i fell hopelessly in love with an agoraphobic girl in my class
                                                             but
                                           she refused to go out with me

                                                     first girl i tried to seduce
                                       was a radiographer i met at a hospital social
                                                                but
                                              she saw straight through me

                                                       next time i tried to head pantswards
                                                           was with a trainee mycologist
                                                                        she said no
                                                                              (but
                                                                did think i was a fun guy)

                                                 i searched high and low
                                        (biology was never my strong point)

                           not much I can say about my tryst with the olympic skier
                                 (things went downhill very quickly)

                                                                     finally

                                               late one frenetic light-filled night
                                            in a world of screams and candy floss
                                                i met a girl on a fairground ride
                                                                    and
                                           we’ve been going round together ever since


                                                             ……………………..

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27 May 2015



                                      grandad

                        parting from a loved one is never easy
                     and  so it was with heavy heart i made the call
                             asking them to take him away

                                      highland car crushers
                                         what a name huh
                            no effete euphemisms for these guys
                                no automotive afterlife implied
                                     just the facts
    we take ‘em
      we crush ‘em

      the ford granada*
       pejoratively but affectionately known in uk as the grandad
                               an ageing two litre armchair

                      it’s taken me on trysts tours and tourneys
                             been a gig bus and a builders’ van

                                            now
                                     a little shabby
                                  transmission shot
                           too many miles on the clock
               (don’t even think it  -  i was there before you)

                                          after that call
                    i went into the driveway and took a few farewell snaps
                                          nothing arty
                            proper me ‘n’ my mate stuff

                                           i sat awhile

                         in the blue of the door panel
               i saw the flicker of a pair of finches on the lawn
                      the cat mirror-padded in the front wing
                  a spider spun a final web in a stationary wheel

                                      i went into the garage
                                   picked up a ragged tee shirt
                              came back and buffed up the hood

                                           then slipped in a cd
                                             and let that old car
                                   (full of music and memories)
                                      capture the scudding clouds


                                              …………………..

*I think the model was called a Taurus in some countries.
  I chanced upon the old picture and decided to re-post the poem.
Both were dated 2005 but the car was at least
10-12 years old by then and had 178,000 miles 
on the “clock.”

     

         

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